100th post and a damn good day

So I only got like5 hours of sleep last night, got up and into the show, and it was fucking cold. So I was pass out tired all day, and to top it all off my stomach was killing me. Worst pain Ive felt in a while. My dad picked me up from school early at around 10:30 and spent the rest of the day sitting on my couch. Ate about 7pieces of pineapple and then about a half cup of pasta and veggies. So I ate like nothing and my parents were totally cool with that mostly cause I was playing up the sick card.

So I sortof in a round about lazy way told Chess I missed him. I kindof slipped it into a text inbetween how ya doing and goodnight...:/

stay thin

I need all your girls to answer me ASAP. Seriously.

Should I tell chess I miss him? I need your answers now. You girls are the only ones who 100% know how I feel about him. youre the only ones with whom ive shared everything about my relationship with. Im so on the fence, and none of my friends are a great help. so please Id love to hear your opinions.

Um...I think I love him

Chess. That one. Who I broke up with, and regretted, and then was happy that I was rid of the ass and after all this time and hate, and sadness, and anger, and jealousy. I miss him immensely. I do with all of my heart miss him and my heart aches every night. Im also high as fuck.

I've never been more depressed

Im freaking about college. What if I dont get in? When will I know? How disappointed could my parents be? What if I end up going to community college with the failures? Im on the verge of tears trying to keep myself calm. I was going to post a help me on Reddit but Id rather come here. I mean. For Gods sake MEGAN got into college and shes got some bad grades. I at least have an 83GPA. I cant do shit. I have my life. I hate it.

-sigh-

I went to the mall with my Mom today, we both got the Reebok Easy Tone sneakers(on sale $39!) and Ive been wearing them for a couple hours. I can already feel them working my calves, I just hope they actually do something for my ass. Its always nice to get hit on and I did. twice.

I really just want to break down and cry. But I cant. I need to write an essay about Death of a Salesman that was due like 2weeks ago and if I dont hand it in tomorrow then its a 0 forever. I need to finish my art for AP art. I need to do laundry. I probably had math HW. I need to cry for about an hour.
my life is just a bottle of fuck.

btw welcome new followers :D Think thin and all that.

Hello Again.

wow. Its been almost an entire month since Ive last posted on here. Well theres a reason for it. I just started smoking weed. Now Ive smoked weed before but my bro got me my own piece(glass pipe) and I found my own dealer so now Im smoking weed just about every day. Munchies are a hard thing to ignore which means I eat. Im keeping a steady weight of around 107.0lbs I think. Im gonna get on my Wii fit and check (out of weed today!) my weight right after I finish this post. Im going to try and post on here a little more often, just as a reminder to myself to keep my weight down but if weed has made me realize one thing its how good food tastes so Im gonna enjoy every last bit.

Its quite funny how habits have formed cause even when Im high I still check calories on the back, I still try not to eat, when I see a thin girl in magazine I think of what good thinspo she is.

Think thin!

[EDIT] I weigh 104.5!