Working it Off is Going to Kill Me

So yesterday I graduated :D it was really boring and long, I don't find things like that important at all. Id rather have just been handed the diploma on the last day of school. Id guess you'd just say Im low key.

So this is me in my cap and gown, one good thing about graduation is those gowns, noone can tell how much you weigh under them!

After graduation my parents, Chess, and I went out to an amazing Chinese food restaurant. Coincidentally its the same one that Chess delivers for, but their food is so fucking good I cant help but go there for sushi whenever I get the chance.  

This is the kind of Sushi I ate, its called a passion roll, look! its a heart! :D Its a spicy tuna and avocado roll with a piece of tuna on top YUMM

Alright, so I gotta tell you about today and how hard I worked! When I woke up I went downstairs and had my usual bagel and coffee(550 calories) then after that I decided that wasn't cool, too many calories. So I got my ass going! I spent hours working on the Wii fit, I started doing the biking game for about 30minutes(kind of like running in place) then I actually ran in place for another 30minutes burning around 300calories(including other games etc.) in between my exercise I ate a salad and had a Sun Drop soda, altogether I had around over 1000calories, but after all that exercise(and I'm not even done for today) I ate about 700 calories, which is the best I've done in weeks!  

Thin dreams <3

Its a Two Update Day!

Alright, went to the doctors and I do in fact have a UTI. Ugh. its really painful >.<

I got 3 really cute dresses today :D One is for graduation, the other two are just cause I look awesome in them. Its really weird, my favorite thing ever is big red and white stripes, even though horizontal stripes are supposed to make you look bigger I wear them all the time. I have 2shirts, 1dress, and a pair of shoes all red and white stripes. I am a girl obsessed! I just love them, I think they look great on me. ;]

Ive eaten a fuck ton of food today.: 

Everything Bagel +Butter

Coffee+Hot Chocolate+milk

Watermelon Blowpop

Chicken Caesar Salad in a Spinach Wrap

Water

Ice Cream+Chocolate Sauce+ Cherries

Im really sad right now. I have the NY State Trig Regents tomorrow Im afraid Im going to fail though >.< My Dad wouldnt let me go out tonight even for a few hours to see Chess and he couldnt come over because he had to watch his little sister. I havent seen him in two days and its really hard after seeing him every single day and spending hours with him for the past 2weeks or so. I miss him :/ so tonights really not going as well I had hoped. My stomach hurts, Im not snuggling with my boy, I ate a fuck tom of food, my parents are mad at me for some reason, and ughhh I have to go to bed early tooonight and thats going to suck.

Ill probably end up eating half a bagel later >.< 

Graduation!

My thighs. Still chubby but I love the space between them 

So I know that you might not want to hear about this, but ohhh fuuuuck I think I have a urinary tract infection. It huuuuuuurts to peeeeeeeeeeee! Not fun yeooo. Im going to the doctors later today :( hopefully it will get better.

Ok, but tomorrow Im graduation High school! Ive got rehersal at 8am, and then my trig regents at 12:15, and finally graduation at 6:00pm. Im pretty excited except I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR. Im hoping my mom will take me to Forever 21 and get a cute cheap dress. I really like wearing dresses but I have like one or two that are casual enough to wear out on a regular day. My favorite dress I got when I was still big, it  didnt fit and looked terrible on me, my mom told me to get rid of it but I kept it. Now I look pretty damn good in it. It was one of those little victories. :]

Last night was really bad. Filet mignon with a gorgonzola sauce on top, baked potatoe fries, and asparagus. Then i drank 2 cans of Sun Drop soda. Ugh. So much. I didnt even bother weighing myself. Right now
Im watching Hoarders, i like watching it alot. I find somthing nice about watching people with no control, makes me feel like i actually have some
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And  now for some bikini Thinspo!!

Eat Like a Model, Look Like a Model

Little bit of thinspo, all stolen from tumblr lolol but its a great place for it :] 

Enjoy

I feel like the incredible hulk... in a bad way

Just added up my calories from yesterday, did the math and my grand total was 1325calories. I cant believe it. I had general tsaos(spelling?) Chicken and rice for dinner, not alot but about half of it. Chess had the other half. I figured out what trips me up when I go to Chess's house, its soda. He drinks caffiene free pepsi, which is a gold can. In my head anything thats not in a navy blue can means diet, so i end up drinking all 150calories. It seems like such a silly mistake, but i dont notice the difference because its not quite as sugary/surupie tasting as regular pepsi. Im going to have to watch that.

On an unrelated note, Chess's moms new nickname for me is "skinny" and honestly i dont appreciate it. I dont need to be made fun of for being skinny. I cant take pride in being so skiny that i get called "skinny", i just feel like theyre making fun of me. Uggh. I dont want to ask Chess to tell her to stop because shes such a nice lady and it would be more awkward then it already is with her sometimes. 

I didnt eat much yet, just a bagel and some coffee, but were probably gonna have a big dinner cause its fathers day ugh Thin dreams <3

ALRIGHT! Story Time! :D

So ive got a few stories to tell you guys :] theyre pretty funny, and a little bit depressing. But I need to tell you!

First off, Prom. My school had prom at West Point, my date was a sophomore named Calyl and he was by far the worst date ever. Hes 17 and turning 18, but he was held back a couple times. The reason he was so terrible was first he tried to cancel on me. Prom day, while Im sitting next to the limo, he called and said "yeah I dont think I can make it blah blah blah my cars messed up" -.- My friend and I told him idgaf whats wrong with his car, get a fucking taxi and get here. So he says fine hell get a taxi. He shows up an hour and a half late, were all sitting in the limo waiting to go when he finally pulls up in the taxi and hops out. Hes fucking half dressed. Tie undone, Cuffs undone, tags still on the suit, and most damming of all...he forgot my corsage. I was so pissed. He kept kissing me on the cheek like it was all alright, I was like nah man fuck that. I ended up tying his tie cause he didnt know how to. He didnt dance with me. Didnt eat with me. He was MIA all night. But honestly I was glad I didnt see him cause hes dead to me.

Oh and that dress I wore was my grandmas, its about 60years old :D(thanks Lottie!)

Im also really glad to be back(im gonna be spending a whole lot of time catching up on blogs starting with yours Olivia Lee ;D)

Not much else has happened, I turned 18! My birthdays in April and it was pretty good. I got $200, half was spent on weed and cigarettes, the other half on a new cell phone, I got the HTC Inspire :] its awesome. I just downloaded  a calorie tracker app its great, I can scan the barcode of what I eat and it pops up with the calories.

I weighed myself today, 107Lbs. I gained that pretty fucking quickly. Im gonna loose it quickly too, my plan for the doctors next time is to just drink a fuck ton of water and just appear to be a normal weight. I didnt think being 107lbs would ever bother me this much. I mean, Im really disturbed by it. Last night I ate about half the Chinese food I normally do. I eat alot of chinese food because Chess is a delivery boy for a Chinese/Japanese restaurant and at the end of the night they give him sesame chicken, lots of rice, and soup. Hes supposed to be loosing weight for the army, so he makes me eat most of it.

alright time to catch up on all your stuff <33 thin dreams!

ps. One thing that buggs the crap outta me is when girls on tumblr post thinspo, but the picture is of a chubby chick. Im like "you must be new" -.-

Wow, its been forever

Prom picture :D

I wanted to update you girls on what Ive been up to. Since I got to 100lbs I just kindof stopped caring about my weight, I kindof went back up to 107 for a little while which wasnt so bad.A couple weeks ago I went to the doctors to get a new prescription for my ADHD meds. Every time I go they weigh me, thinking I was still at 107Lbs I didnt think much of it but when I got on the scale I weighed just 100.5Lbs. I was kindof proud of myself that without even trying I had worked my way down to 100ish, but the death glares from my mom were really annoying. They put me on a lower dose of medication, one that wont mess with my appetite so much, and Ive been eating massive amounts of food just to please my parents and Chess.

OH yea, I havent told yall! Chess and I were basically back together. Were not boyfriend and girlfriend, hes really afraid of relationships cause everyone hes had has ended badly and its really fucked his mind up, he doesnt want to fuck it up with me so right now were just not official. As far as Im concerned hes my boyfriend. So Im REALLY happy. Chess isnt graduating highschool, he dropped out to get his G.E.D and join the military. He wants to be on the front lines shooting terrorists and whatnot, that scares me that he could get hurt :[ hell be shipping out to basic training next January or February.

Im going to start going to the Gym with my best friend Megan :] we walked over a mile every day during school cause we were walking down to that deli, so now that summers here and were not walking down there we need to keep our exercise up!

Now I said Im gaining weight, just to make my mom happy, and Chess happy. HOWEVER Im not recovering, or anything like that. I want to stay skinny. Its really a great feeling. The past week or so Ive been eating till Im about to burst and that actually sucks. I mean its awesome eating everything and anything I want but doing it will Im full is really unfun. Id rather eat whatever I want, in really small quantities. I havent eaten anything today except coffee. Im going to have some amazing sushi for dinner, and some chinese food cause chess will make me eat it. Other than that, theres not much I want to wat so Ill be safe all day <33

Thin Dreams lovlies I missed you and Im going to try and update a little more often <3333333

and If you care follow my tumblr, its not a thinspo or diet blog its motsly just shit I love(weed, Adventure time, diet pepsi, random stuff) http://adriennethekid.tumblr.com/ too many people I know IRL follow me for it to be about ana, but follow me ill follow you back <3