Desperation, Popcorn, Cajun Fries. Can You Imagine My Day?

Ugh. Well. Today started out pretty good. I had a two coffees, milk and a little sugar. I didn't play gym today, and I had water and a Diet Pepsi. Then...shit just started to hit the fan. Im working on a project with 3other girls. One decided to go ahead and basically do the project (badly mind you) So me and the other two group members re-did the project. Now the one girl has decided to go tell the teachers we didnt help at all and are fucking with her and is trying to give us 0 credit on the project...that we worked on...Fuck...

So after that kur-fuffle I went to see the movie Tangled with my very...um...large friend Anna...God I think about weight too much...ANY WHO I got a free soda because of one very nice man, it was a Diet Pepsi :D and then I got a small popcorn...I handed it to Anna who poured a gallon of butter on it. It was soooooo bad. I was getting nauseous just holding it.

So by the end of that totally adorable movie I was thinking "I completely ruined my intake for the day. Im gonna skip dinner and Ill be alright" HAHA nope, my Dad picked me and my friend up and took us to the cause of obesity, the Burger joint, 5 Guys. Me and Anna split a small fries...but those are still huge. So when I came home I had cookies, God only knows why.

So heres the desperation part. Ive been generally upset lately and I just need someone who I know and I trust...and long story short Ive been talking to Chess. Nothing serious but you know Im feeling shitty when I start talking to him :[ I just dont know anymore.

Fuck my life.

Fuck You Snickers

TOTALLY CAVED. Ate 1/2 the Cliff Bar, and 1/4 the Snickers bar...I made my friends eat the rest :P

SO I was a huge creep today and took pictures of a couple of people in my school, why? Cause they are fat! hahaha Im terrible :D Today, was rough. Not bad, mind you just...tough. No smokes today D: I had Subs in 4Classes and they weren't even good subs.

Fuck. I just realized. I made fish, from the book Rainbow Fish, like I made them big for some kids play took me 2hours to make them right. And I forgot them, in the lobby of my school. I really hope noone threw them away. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

Oh well. Over it. Hahaha Ill just....make em again. Fuck. ANYWAY pizza for dinner, yummy. Could be worse? could be a ball of lard...Im gonna eat like 2 pieces, just to please my parents. Im tired of them complaining.

So today:
1/2Cliffbar (125)
1/4Snickers (70)
Pizza(ALOT)
Dunkin-cappuccino (also alot)
Diet Pepsi (0)
Pretzel (?)

Today was a bad calorie counting day. I have nooooo idea what anything was. GAH I hate that. Like a ballpark guess is good enough for me, but I hate eating something without knowing whats sortof in it...

OH AND I deleted the thinspo blog because I actually figured out how to put a second page on here and Im gonna put all my pictures there Soooo check the top, its right above the fish!

Heather: Damn police! Normally I use one of my friends bowls, or like you said soda can. But I used to be much more creative, I made my own waterbong outof a waterbottle, or pipe out of tinfoil hahaha

What the Fuck Was I Thinking?

I feel so uncomfortable posting in public, Im at the Library in school now and I dont want people looking at this...ewewewewew NERVOUS

So once again I feel for the evil ladys PTO tables cheap snacks, ended up with a Snickers and a Cliff Bar. About 250Cal for each. I havent eaten them yet, but I am gonna be here till 5. UGH nope. No excuses. I also had Coffee, and a Diet Pepsi today. So...around 50 calories SO FAR, its 2:00 now so I still have time to fuck up...

This is makeing me feel so weird. Im going to just wait till later to talk more. Im freaking the fuck out.

Drama Club, Popcorn, Red Lips and Total Envy!

Ok I totally Jacked these pics from Determined-Girl (http://taste-thin.blogspot.com/) Cause These were just too pretty to not repost! My only wish is to look that cool, sexy, amazing and totally skinny. Im about to go into a jealous rage right now!! :D

So I am officially the Stage Manager of the schools Drama club play this year!!! I love doing back stage crew, its such a work out with all the stuff I end up doing, like moving tables and chairs and all sorts of heavy lifting, running around backstage I love it! Ive been staying after till 5pm everyday (school ends at 2:10) and its only gonna get later! :3 Oh were Doing a HILARIOUS play called The Complete Works of William Shakespeare Abridged It was made for 3 people but were stretching it for 14. Im super excited about this.

Oh and Ive begun a very strange game of "tag". Its me putting on bright red lipstick and then kissing people when they aren't looking so they have a big kiss on them :D Its really fun!

Food-wise today was alright. The Parent-Teacher-Organization has a booth set up every day after school selling Pizza, Popcorn, Candy Bars, fruit snacks, Soda...basically its 3 tables of cheap unhealthy garbage. (Thank you Ariana for looking up the Calories in Fruit by the foot!!) Today I bought a water, and a bag of popcorn, ate 15pieces at the most and gave the rest away :] It made me really happy to give that crap away.

So intake?
2Diet Pepsi (Im addicted at least 2 everyday)
Popcorn (not alot)
2 hotdogs (500cal with bread)
Tea (0)

Ariana: Ive told my Dad hes fat a bunch of times (hes borderline obese, thats what his Dr. Says) And he doesn't care! He doesn't care about his weight!! Ugh it makes me soooo mad!

Rachael: Lucky! I want more snow soo badly!

Lilah: That reminds me of "Fuck tha PO-lice Comin straight from the underground" N.W.A. haha <3

Mich: I would rather them not talk about me at all! ^-^ but I can only dream right?
Next time I wear those boots Ill take a pic, cause I love lookin badass!


<33 Time to read yo words! Love yall! SEW MUCH

Maybe, it Aint So Bad!

Can anyone say 2hr delay? Maybe living in the woods isnt so bad, when I get to wake up to winter wonderlands! It was really nice today :D Shortened classes! Snow! And nooooooo food! (okay a little)

As you can prolly tell today was a whole lot better then yesterday! I even wore a cute outfit today. I wore my classic side-zip leather biker jacket and my new biker boots! lol Im such a tool sometimes <3

I had 1.5 Fruit by the foot things, and ew they made me feel sick! Theres a reason I dont eat that shit, besides the fact that its 99.9% sugar and gross :]
So in total I've eaten
Coffee (50)
Diet Pepsi (0)
Fruit Roll-ups (??)
Pasta and Pesto (???)

So not alot...but I still feel like it was toooooo much..

Wowowow All the feedback makes me smile like a damn fool sometimes XD
Ariana: Hottopic is way over priced but at the same time, theres not really any other place to get that stuff unfortunately. PacSun is the only place I shop for jeans though, I like their stuff and it can take some abuse where as hottopic stuff tends to fall apart reeeeely easy! lol

Rachael: Your lucky your belt has lasted soo long, most of my friends who get belts from HT end up buying new ones a few weeks later. Mine is missing like 2 and Ive had to buy a few buckles but I cant go without this belt, I wear it every day!

Mich: I loved her slippers also, and that shirt <33 I wish I was thin enough to rock an outfit like that!

Heather: Hahaha Or Adrienne on weed! Comment award of the day goes to you for that one XD I love seeing my name on other peoples blogs too, its always nice!


ALRIGHT time to go catch up on each of your lovely blogs <33
(and welcome new comers! Enjoy!!)



Ok after dinner. Once again my fat ass father decided to comment on how skinny I look. Because of how my jeans look on me. First off, when you wear jeans all day they strech and sag a little I dont look like a fucking model in them. LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE YOU ASS! STOP TALKING ABOUT ME LIKE I CANT HEAR YOU. JUST BECAUSE YOU FUCKTARDS CANT HEAR EACHOTHER ONE ROOM AWAY DOESNT MEAN I CANT EITHER. I HEAR YOU TALKING ABOUT ME. I KNOW WHAT YOUR SAYING AND IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE SHIT. STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP AND I WONT STOP SAYING STOP TILL YOU DO. assholes.