One thing I relized from the book mentioned in my last post is weight lies. It fluctuates like crazy. Why do we get so worked up about it? Its natural to go up and down! Im going to start using much more accturate mesurments(besides weight) and thats Total Inches(TI) thats circumfrence of upper arms(mid bicep) waist, hips, and both legs mid thigh. Added all together is the TI. Wheb this changes, its a real change not a daily fluctuation :) I cant wait to get home now

Hello beautifuls! Im sorry I went AWOL, I was in VT...still in vt actually. Ive been reading this amazing book called 4hour Body by Timothy Ferriss. It sounds like a gimick I know but its a real eye opener as to the myths of weight loss and how easy it it. Im actually going to try some of his programs and Ill tell yall how it goes. The first thing Im trying it his routine for the perfect ass. And all it requires is a Kettle ball. You swing it between your legs then swinging it up to shoulder height for 20min 2twice a week, and in 4weeks...perfect ass. Im hoping to hell it works. Also....the holidays made me really fat. :( like...im...chubby and I barley fit into the clothes I got for Christmas. Fuck.
Ill be home tomorrow to clean up my post :(

The Holidays are not an Excuse.

This story starts way back at around 9:00Pm last night. Me and Gram got so high and went to see Tron. The acting was 100%shit but everything else was amazing. Especially Daft Punk. Wow. I was in the theater with a whole bunch of annoying hipsters. hahaha. We ended up getting home at around 1:00Am Christmas morning, and went to bed at 2:00Am and then I woke up at 8:00am...in other words-To damn early. My parents and I waited around till 9:00am to open presents. I got an amazingly warn fur aviator hat, a ring, starbucks card, money, some tea, games for the Wii, and $345 worth of clothes from PacSun. Needless to say the day started out pretty fucking good.

So at this point Im a bit tired but really excited about my gifts and etc, so its all good. My brother and I decided its time for a blunt, and leave. Now we have some pretty Dank weed on us, some real sour Sour Diesel. We roll that up and cruise for a good couple hours, and maaaan. It was good. Really good. We got home and...and...

I totally ate a whole bag of fucking Doritoes. Cool Ranch too. Then I did nothing. I had some alcohol+heavy ceram, fuck that. Then I had Champagne, double fuck that. I ate a huge piece of beef +mashed potatoes +asparagus and holy fucking shit, Im full. To the point where I dont want to move let alone live.

AND I DONT GIVE A FUCK IF ITS THE HOLIDAYS.
I can not use that as an excuse anymore for eating badly. Even if it is the holidays its not worth the work Im going to need to do to work it all off. And I will look like SHIT in all my new clothes. Im a size 3 skinny jeans. Im a size 14 after a day like today. Ew just fucking ew.

This is disgusting.

FUCK. Im going to Vermont tomorrow also. and noone wants to. I fucking hate VT. There is less to do there then there is here. And Skiing is no exercise whatsoever. Im moving but its not work for me. Im so goddamn pissed off about goin g up to this fucking cabin in the woods. <3

Merry Christmas.

And It Was All Going So WELL!

Grams coming home today andI just cant wait!!

Stayed home today and did maybe two things on that list X.X BUT I ate almost nothing and even burned a couple hundred calories with the Wii fit! I woke up, cigg, TV, Wii, Cigg, Tv, Internet, cigg, Shower, Put Thinspo in journal, Tv, and Back to the Internet. As you can tell. My day has not been exciting at all.

Now heres where it all went wrong...
Somewhere in between shower and Thinspo...I decided to make Garlic bread...Like straight up butter and garlic on toast. And I ate it and boy oh boy I feel sick. I was going to make an omlette to go with it but instead threw the 2nd piece of bread out into the woods for the animals to eat then I marched upstairs and started printing out pictures for my journal. It was tough man.

Other then that...I had tea and 1/4 a cup of coffee.

I know for a fact were going to be eating a BIG steak dinner with the works. I am not excited for this at all. Not one smidgen.

Ill update later lovelies. <3

I Am Going To Rip My Skin Off

Daaaaaaaamn look at those collar bones!


Everything. Everything. Everything itches. No idea wtf is happening but I took a shower and scrubbed/boiled a good layer of skin off, its better then before but still itchy, my backs the worst, legs then stomach. Im loosing my damn mind here.

So today was an amazing fail. It began going downhill with Secret Santa, she gave me Crepe mix, fig almond jelly, and Chocolate that made me sick :[ it wasnt that tasty either. blech. However I managed to avoid the trap of candy canes and sweets all day. I didnt even eat cookies today! But I still ate alot :/


INTAKE:
1/4cup hot chocolate
1piece peppermint bark
1 piece quiche
Sandwich(roast beef, Rye, Chedder, spinach, onion, mayo)
Diet Pepsi
Water
Grapes
Coffee

Im actually excited for Christmas now that I know Im getting a bunch of presents! I know Im getting a real warm Aviator/bomber hat, a couple of Wii games, and Friday my Mommy is taking me shopping for some clothes and I cant wait!! I actually like clothes shopping, I dont like my mom looking at me and trying to determine how much I weigh. I cannot believe how close we are to that merry day!

To make me even happier, Tomorrow I have no school(well its a half day but Im skipping) I get to sleep in, have a cigarette and coffee, watch movies, and relax all day. Maybe Ill work on my AP art concentration, or paint my nails. I need a plan so that Im not munch-munch-munchin all day

Coffee + smoke
Shower
Blow dry/Straighten hair
Paint Nails Red
Watch a Funny Movie/Catch up on Blogs <3
Clean Grams room up
Clean up Computers
Print Lots of Thinspo!

That should keep me occupied all day :] <33