Here I Am in Vermont

Yesterday sucked. About halfway through the drive home my dad pulls off to go to McDonalds for dinner. Ugh. I still feel sick just thinking about it. I ordered the 3piece chicken selects and my Mom ordered the 5piece and gave me one so that we would each have 4pieces of chicken. I also got a small fries with it. Ew. I felt so sick and i still do. Just that pungent smell of McDonalds is really difficult to get over. I only managed to eat 3selects before I felt stuffed. Ew. At least I had a diet Pepsi :/

Then this morning after a horrible nights sleep(I slept next to a wood burning stove and it was so hot I couldn't fall asleep till at least 3am. Ugh. Anyway I woke up and just as I thought, my Dad made a huge breakfast. Eggs, Sausage, and Toast drenched in butter. I could even finish the eggs and toast. Way to much butter. I didn't ski today, although my parents are. I would rather work on my math homework then ski today.

What I ate...
3piece chicken selects 400
Small french fries 230
Diet Pepsi 0
2eggs(200)
toast (???)
Coffee (50)
Sausage(???)

And tonight Im pretty sure were having a big dinner :/ potatoes, meat, the whole 9 yards. God I feel sick.

>.< Thin dreams <3

I Guess the World Just Likes to Fuck With Me.

For some unexplainable, evil, horrible reason everytime I go to Vermont I get my period. When my period comes my body just decides 'well one things fucked, might as well let the rest go to hell' My face and chest broke out so now I look like some middle schooler going through puberty. Im bloated so now all my jeans are tight so I look like a sausage. If there is one good thing about VT its that noone has to see me like this...hopefully the 21year old I hooked up with isnt at the house this weekend...

I had 2 sips of coffee for breakfast. Breakfast in VT is going to be annoying. every morning my dad makes eggs and bacon, and toast, with orange juice, and coffee. So much food. So Im just going to not eat breakfast. I wont have to eat lunch, I mean my parents wont notice cause they will be busy skiing. Hopefully by the time we return form the freezing cold northern state, my face will have cleared up a bit, my period will have stopped completely and I will have lost at least a pound or two. 

Ive been talking to Chess every night, up till midnight maybe 1am just talking to him about everything :] Its really nice. lol my Dad told me to stay away from him. As if!

Alright I need to pack. 4days. I can do this. <33 Ill try and update whenever I can! and I cant wait to get back and read all about your progress!!

Alright that^ was my first friend when I moved to my current town in 2nd grade. She has since moved to CA, thinned up, gotten perfect skin, perfect body, and is basically how I wished I looked. :/

Thin dreams!

Im Going to Vermont Tonight, Ill Leave You With an Inspirational Story About Kelly.

I have a friend. Her name is Kelly.

 She is really fat. She always smells terrible, and honestly I dont think she has ever shaved her legs. Her clothing style consists of everything thats too small for her, hand-me-downs from her tall thin sisters, anything emo/punk, and all her pants are too small leading to the horrifying  phenomenon known as 'plumbers crack'  

 Shes going to prom this year. I  dont think its in this dress...I hope shes not. But I have been told what her prom dress looks like. it looks like mine from last year. Except in daffodil yellow...here let me make this easier.  Thats me in my dress. 

Now imagine that dress in bright yellow stretched across Kellys pale flabby skin? 

Scary huh? lol 

One of the most unfortunate things about her is that shes the last kid in her family, the youngest. Shes also the fattest. Those are 2 of her sisters, all of her family got her mothers genes(tall thin etc) except for Kelly...

You would think that as the black sheep of her family she would try and make an effort with her weight.

Nope Kelly works at Dunkin Doughnuts where she eats hundreds of calories everyday. 

Dont be Kelly girls. 

Funerals are weird

So I went to my great uncle Kens funeral today. He was an amazing man RIP. Ive never been to a funeral(even with all the deaths in previous years)Ive never had to go. So because Im part of the closest family to him we had to sit up front so I ended up shaking like 30 peoples hands. Anyway I walk into the church and Im standing in the pews a minute when I look over and theres a big cloth covering a box and I realize 'oh my god, hes in that box' it was weeeeiird. I also had to um receive the host(?) Ive never gone to church or done that. Im Lutheran but Im not practicing. Do those crackers and wine have calories? It was like eating a foam disk....

After the funeral the family went to lunch at this amazing but totally fattening Italian restaurant. The Priest and his wife came along, and they sat across from me. Now obviously I am not religious at all so sitting across from them would mean I would have to talk alot of religion. And I did. And it was obnoxious.

Anyway I ate:
1 wafer+sip of wine
1 medium dunkinchino
1/4huge bowl fettuccine Alfredo (that I might eat now...)
2 bites mozerella
and coffee

I might be high. Im only comfortable eating when Im high. Ive gotten used to the munchies so they only get me on occasion but earlier when I was at the restaurant I ate like 3 bites. Now? I want to eat some of it, it was delicious. ahh.

Im talking to Chess constantly hes such a goof :3

Think thin ladies. Thank God Im not fat. I cant wait to be thinner. 105.5 today :|

I WANT MOTHERFUCKING SPRINGTIME. hence the new theme

Cigarettes, Arnold Palmer, and Weeeeeeed

Okay so I dont know if I told you all this but I was grounded on Saturday because of my basically failing grade in Govt. class. And we are currently on break. We were supposed to go to Vermont this weekend but my great uncle Ken died. I didnt know him that well but he was a cool dude. Fought in WWII. So anyway. My Uncle came up for the funeral and I didnt want to go to the wake so I stayed home.

Heres where it gets fun. As soon as my parents left my best friend and basically my other half Megan picked me up. We went out got cigarettes, and I got a 'lite' Arnold Palmer Iced Tea then we went out to meet Megan's boyfriend and boy oh boy we smoked a fat blunt. Got home, and now am waiting for my parents to get home. My Dad gave me $20 for dinner, with that I got a pack of Marb reds, and threw in for a nice blunt. Got $5 for change. Im going to tell him I got a Cluckin Russian, the Iced Tea, and maybe a cupcake :]

I make such good plans.

Heres what I ate today.
Water(0)
Coffee(25)
Iced tea(150)
cigarettes (0)

Oh and I got Chess to come to my house(just turn around in my driveway) so that I could hear/see his car that he is so proud of lol hes silly. Im so tired though we were up till like2am talking on the phone :]

I also need to get up at like 7am tomorrow to go to the mass then lunch for ken. Should be well dont really want to say fun but whatever

Thin Dreams <3
p.s. I dont know who posted that originally but thanks lol