104.0Lbs!!!

Guess who just weighed herself at 104.0lbs? Meee!!! Im so happy that Im just one pound away from reaching my goal weight!

I had my 5hr course for driving yesterday which meant I had an excuse not to eat lunch! When that was over my mom picked me up and we went and did some driving practice until it was dinner. We went and picked up some sushi and dumplings for dinner. I only ate 1roll or sushi, and a few fried pork dumplings. Yum they were so delicious!

Todays been great so far, I had some Chicken Tika Masala and Rice for breakfast. Im hoping that my mom and I will go up to Woodstock later maybe grab some coffee and pick up her artwork from a gallery. Its going to be a beautiful day so Im super pumped!

Im in such a good mood! I figured out something, my ADHD medication keeps me calm. Every night I go crazy somehow. I get really upset sometimes, not bipolar but I think a lot less clearly and logically when my meds wear off. I mean I already knew that, what I figured out was, If I take half my meds in the AM then about halfway through the day I take the other half Ill be calm all day and wont freak out at night. Ill be able to control my appetite 24/7 and Ill be a lot more pleasant!

Think thin!!
Thank you for all your kind words about my artwork :]

Shamrock Shake!!

I only ate 1/2 a small shamrock shake today. That was it. That and some Arizona iced teas to keep me going :]. I almost ruined it tonight when I went to work with Chess, he was going to order me some of the highest calorie foods for dinner (hes a chinese food delivery boy so he gets a great discount) and I just kept telling him no, I dont want food!! He finally caved and didnt buy me food. I feel terrible though. It might be caffeine withdrawal...got I hope it is. I dont like being depressed.

I had gym today and did some fucking intense workouts on my abs. They will probably be sore tomorrow :] Ah its a good day when everything is sore!

GET THIS lol I asked my friend to purchase me marb. reds(cigarettes) and a green lighter. She returns with regular reds(I smoke 100's which are long) and a fucking crack lighter.Gah I was fuming.

Wow! thanks for all your nice words on my art :] it really means alot to me! Alice in Waterland is my concentration for AP art. Its done in Watercolors and ink. <33

sorry for the short post!! <33 thin dreams

Meat Pie

When I was little I lived in Australia. One of my favorite memories was eating meat pies. Its exactly what it sounds like. Theyre meat with spices etc. in a pie crust and its the tastiest thing ever. The way that I always got it was with mashed potatoes on top. Damn it was good. I ended up eating 3pretty small pieces for dinner and some mac and cheese.

Finally after a long 3 days I got back to gym and had a good long workout. I asked Chess for some weights(I had given him some free weights last year) just 15 pounds to do some exercise at home. I really want to get back into gym and work on my legs and ass more.

Guess who made $60 on her first piece of art work sold? I made This. Obviously Im going to blow all my money on cigarettes and weed ;] not on food!

Thin Dreams <33

Much Better!

I wish I had a stomach like that >.<

Today was so much better then yesterday :] I barley ate today! And I finally got an internship for senior year! At my school we have to do a 45hr internship inorder to graduate. Im doing it with one of my friends moms whos an art teacher. Shes super nice so this will be super easy for me. So no more stressing over that!

No gym today :[ so no workout today. Ugh. I cant wait till tomorrow. My parents will both be out of the house for the first time in forever! I think tomorrow I might play wii fit until they come home, I could really use that extra exercise. I mean couldnt we all though? lol I need to work off those cookies. Im drinking a ton of water tonight in the hopes of peeing alot of weight off ;]

Today was pretty good so far.
1bottle Arizona Iced tea
1chicken sandwich
1/4cup mac and cheese
water

Thats it. compared to my binge weekend thats amazing!

Over the Lips and Through the Gums..

Watch out stomach, cause nothing comes ;]

Driving lesson today was alot of fun, I drove all around my county and even learned to parallel park! And you know what I didnt do the entire time? Eat. Havent eaten anything so far today. Although I did have a victory can of Arizona Green Tea for not crashing the car! Im not sure whats for dinner just yet. My mom went shopping today and got me lots of Iced Tea and Diet Pepsi.Except while she was out she also picked up a box of the most dreadful, vile, calorie filled, sugary things ever. She got me a box...of Girl Scout Somoas.  I already ate one. But thats my limit. One a day. The serving size is 2cookies at 140 calories. That means one is 70calories. So one a day is safe.

So whats weed like? hmmm...its hard to describe really....Its a little different for everyone...Physically, you calm down, eyelids are a little heavy, and you just want to sit there and enjoy the fun thats happening in your head. Your mind will wander to places you couldnt imagine, not bad places(usually) but fun, happy, places, where you figure out the meaning of life and yourself and you giggle the entire way through. Everything feels awesome. Everything sounds awesome. Everything tastes awesome. Everything is awesome. lol I love weed. Smoking dosent bother me, I dont plan on smoking cigarettes for the rest of my life. I think this is just a teenage thing. Hopefully weed isnt just a teenage thing for me though, its a real good thing.