Danger Days: Fuck yes.

My Chemical Romance's new album dropped today and I I must say, it is some of the best work they have ever done. If you dont like MCR I respect your opinion, but I dont want to hear it cause I love em ;]

Todays total consumption was:
Water
Diet Pepsi X2
Tea
Meatloaf (also very small)(275)
Egg noodles(220)
chips(300)
so 795? its alright :/

Most likely Im going to get some more tea soon. I gotta take a picture of it, I have this fancy Green and Gold cup that deserves to be held by the queen during afternoon tea. I feel like when I have a large clunky heavy mug I feel equally as large clunky and heavy... With my dainty and fragile tea cup and tea pot, I feel so much lighter smaller. weird? haha a little!

One more thing and I promise to stop rambling on, has anyone else read this article about the Nutrition Professor who lost 27Lbs eating only Twinkies and other junk foods proving its not quality but quantity? yea. Check it out <3

http://www.takepart.com/news/2010/11/08/nutrition-professor-drops-27-pounds-on-a-twinkie-diet



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okay about 15minutes after I posted this I just about finished the bag of Cape Cod Sea Salt& Vinegar chips :[ I feel so defeated. and fat. Ive spent the last Hour and a half Running 3.5Miles. Its the first time in months that Ive actually ran, so I feel really sick right now. I basically turned my bedroom into a sweat box; The heats turned up to 80degrees, im wearing sweatpants, a sweatshirt, a long sleeved shirt underneath, ski socks and a fleece hat. I've also chugged an entire bottle of water, and I have 2more that I need to finish before I go to bed. Boy, did I fuck up today. and all I can think is that im going to wake up and weigh 300Lbs D:

My Stomach Says Hello!

Its been grumbling all day :] in other words I have eaten a total of NOTHING! except for water and Life Sustaining Diet Pepsi ;] Im not sure whats for dinner just yet, but Im sure it wont be too bad... Today was odd, I was Eating lunch with my friend who just moved into town...rather I was watching her eat her lunch lol. She had gotten the schools tacos...they. Smelt. TERRIBLE! gahh. I actually thought about leaning over and just stealing a bite, but then the voice in my head said "NOooooo. Shes a Size XL, you want to be her? Dooo youuu?" The sound of a can of soda opening immediately followed.
I started talking to Chess again(Exboyfriend) I am 100% sure this time that I wont date him again. I just dont see how. I think that hes taking me just talking to him a little to seriously...last time I talked to him like this we got into a fight where I told him he ruined every chance of getting back together with me. Oh well, hes another douche-bag-boy. and there is a few other boys who like me, one of whom is like a stick figure @_____@

I need to weigh myself soon, but not when my parents are around they are already suspicious of my weight >.<

Thanks for all the support on my last couple posts! All your comments mean the world to me! <3 thankyouthankyouthankyou!!

Has anyone played the game Portal? its a tad nerdy but its by far the best puzzle game out there, thats where my picture comes from, also the phrase "the cakes a lie"

<33 stay thin girls I LOVE ALL OF YOUU

The people who inspire me

Most of these people are in some way or form friends, not good ones...but I know them. They go to my school and they are the ones who inspire me to continue to loose weight ;] btw get ready to meet the bitch in me


This was prom, we had gone into the city and she^ was the only one who couldnt find a dress cause hi-end stores only make up to about size 14. her second choice dress(pictures) did not look good.


Halloween. They didnt look that bad...but lets just say that tight was not made for them.


This one, used to be the little pixie in our group, shes about 4feet6in tall and at 100-104lbs she was very cute and small...cut to present day and she has ballooned up to 130. shes much smaller then me and weighs almost 3times as much.


Halloween again...costumes shouldnt be made plus side


She was trying to be a MCR killjoy for Halloween. Legging? no. Most chubby people work like mad on their hair...she does not, I actually dont think she showers. Shes also a pretty shitty friend who calls me a pig. ME. A PIG. I who never eats, was called a pig by her.


Shes really nice, but has intense weight problems. Shes my age. scary right?



I went on a trip to Europe with these girls. The one on the Far right looks pregnant when shes not sucking it in so much, she wore extremely short, small and tight clothes. It was not a pretty sight. Im proud of the one in the one-piece because shes the only one who realized what was appropriate. One on the far left with the stomach hanging over? that was hard to look at.

this is my real life reverse thinspo <3 it is these people who keep me going. Obviously it didnt work today. Meatball sub for dinner(only 2meatballs)I love posting on my blog Im sorry for spamming XD Ive spent all day going through thinspo. <3

before and afterish...

Thats me before and after...Theres no real shots of my body(or any that show me being the least bit chubby)only ones of my face, and I think the obvious loss of that double chin of mine is cause for celebration ;D oh and I just realized that first picture was taken around last saint Patricks day...so 8months ago :]

My mom complained that she bough mac and cheese and I never ate it, and that I never ate anything so in order to calm her down I made myself mac&cheese and ate it all >.< boy oh boy do I feel gross. My dad is making meatballs and spaghetti for dinner. Talk about a failure of a day @_____@ I dont want to do anything either. Im all worn out. I dont want school. I dont want the holidays. I dont want my parents. I dont want food! I guess Im feeling a little crushed at the moment. *sigh*

Thanks for your support you lovely girls <3

Frosty the Snow Man

I cant wait for it to snow. Im so impatient! Looking outside and seeing every delicate branch layered pure white fluff makes me so happy. The calmness that comes with it, the silence, the way little chunks of snow to heavy for their perches fall off and cut holes into he floor below them it just does something nothing else can! I cannnt waaaiiiittt!!!

On a separate note My BROTHERS COMING HOME!! I am so excited. I love my bro, we are probably the tightest siblings ever. We are seriously best friends and I look up to him and I value his opinion. He was actually the one who got me started on loosing weight(he went to college lost alot of weight and I refused to be the big sibling and lost weight also) Me and Gram, we blaze together, talk together, and are just awesome together. The only downside to him coming home is that hes returning because hes seriously depressed and is failing classes :[ I love my bro-ski Im sure we will be awesomely happy.

Its still early but Ive had coffee so far, and Im going to go have a pot of tea, riiiight after I take my adhd medication that suppresses my appetite :D Then Shower, and then no foood :] Ill update later girls!

I am absolutely loving reading all your blogs again and spent a good portion of last night catching up on the past couple weeks <3 Stay thin!!