ALRIGHT! Story Time! :D

So ive got a few stories to tell you guys :] theyre pretty funny, and a little bit depressing. But I need to tell you!

First off, Prom. My school had prom at West Point, my date was a sophomore named Calyl and he was by far the worst date ever. Hes 17 and turning 18, but he was held back a couple times. The reason he was so terrible was first he tried to cancel on me. Prom day, while Im sitting next to the limo, he called and said "yeah I dont think I can make it blah blah blah my cars messed up" -.- My friend and I told him idgaf whats wrong with his car, get a fucking taxi and get here. So he says fine hell get a taxi. He shows up an hour and a half late, were all sitting in the limo waiting to go when he finally pulls up in the taxi and hops out. Hes fucking half dressed. Tie undone, Cuffs undone, tags still on the suit, and most damming of all...he forgot my corsage. I was so pissed. He kept kissing me on the cheek like it was all alright, I was like nah man fuck that. I ended up tying his tie cause he didnt know how to. He didnt dance with me. Didnt eat with me. He was MIA all night. But honestly I was glad I didnt see him cause hes dead to me.

Oh and that dress I wore was my grandmas, its about 60years old :D(thanks Lottie!)

Im also really glad to be back(im gonna be spending a whole lot of time catching up on blogs starting with yours Olivia Lee ;D)

Not much else has happened, I turned 18! My birthdays in April and it was pretty good. I got $200, half was spent on weed and cigarettes, the other half on a new cell phone, I got the HTC Inspire :] its awesome. I just downloaded  a calorie tracker app its great, I can scan the barcode of what I eat and it pops up with the calories.

I weighed myself today, 107Lbs. I gained that pretty fucking quickly. Im gonna loose it quickly too, my plan for the doctors next time is to just drink a fuck ton of water and just appear to be a normal weight. I didnt think being 107lbs would ever bother me this much. I mean, Im really disturbed by it. Last night I ate about half the Chinese food I normally do. I eat alot of chinese food because Chess is a delivery boy for a Chinese/Japanese restaurant and at the end of the night they give him sesame chicken, lots of rice, and soup. Hes supposed to be loosing weight for the army, so he makes me eat most of it.

alright time to catch up on all your stuff <33 thin dreams!

ps. One thing that buggs the crap outta me is when girls on tumblr post thinspo, but the picture is of a chubby chick. Im like "you must be new" -.-

Wow, its been forever

Prom picture :D

I wanted to update you girls on what Ive been up to. Since I got to 100lbs I just kindof stopped caring about my weight, I kindof went back up to 107 for a little while which wasnt so bad.A couple weeks ago I went to the doctors to get a new prescription for my ADHD meds. Every time I go they weigh me, thinking I was still at 107Lbs I didnt think much of it but when I got on the scale I weighed just 100.5Lbs. I was kindof proud of myself that without even trying I had worked my way down to 100ish, but the death glares from my mom were really annoying. They put me on a lower dose of medication, one that wont mess with my appetite so much, and Ive been eating massive amounts of food just to please my parents and Chess.

OH yea, I havent told yall! Chess and I were basically back together. Were not boyfriend and girlfriend, hes really afraid of relationships cause everyone hes had has ended badly and its really fucked his mind up, he doesnt want to fuck it up with me so right now were just not official. As far as Im concerned hes my boyfriend. So Im REALLY happy. Chess isnt graduating highschool, he dropped out to get his G.E.D and join the military. He wants to be on the front lines shooting terrorists and whatnot, that scares me that he could get hurt :[ hell be shipping out to basic training next January or February.

Im going to start going to the Gym with my best friend Megan :] we walked over a mile every day during school cause we were walking down to that deli, so now that summers here and were not walking down there we need to keep our exercise up!

Now I said Im gaining weight, just to make my mom happy, and Chess happy. HOWEVER Im not recovering, or anything like that. I want to stay skinny. Its really a great feeling. The past week or so Ive been eating till Im about to burst and that actually sucks. I mean its awesome eating everything and anything I want but doing it will Im full is really unfun. Id rather eat whatever I want, in really small quantities. I havent eaten anything today except coffee. Im going to have some amazing sushi for dinner, and some chinese food cause chess will make me eat it. Other than that, theres not much I want to wat so Ill be safe all day <33

Thin Dreams lovlies I missed you and Im going to try and update a little more often <3333333

and If you care follow my tumblr, its not a thinspo or diet blog its motsly just shit I love(weed, Adventure time, diet pepsi, random stuff) http://adriennethekid.tumblr.com/ too many people I know IRL follow me for it to be about ana, but follow me ill follow you back <3

Still Reeling

I checked again today...still 100.5! Honestly I dont want to loose anymore weight, its not that Im skinny enough, I can always be skinnier! The truth is there is a point where people can tell how we got to be so damn skinny. When we weigh 99.0 lbs everyone can tell that we havent eaten in 2days, theres no other explanation at that point. I would love to weigh 99.0Lbs. That would really be the low-fat icing on the Jenny Craig low calorie cake! lol But weighing 99Lbs isnt worth the inevitable drama that would come with it. I would rather weigh 100.0lbs and be free to do whatever the fuck I want, rather then weigh 99.0lbs and have to visit doctors, be watched constantly, forced to eat, and all the emotional drama that would really do damage to me. Im skinny now. I know I am.

I know how shocking this must sound. A pro-ana person saying shes skinny enough?  Well yes. For now any way. Under the watchful eye of my parents this is as skinny as I can be without attracting negative attention. I could keep going, but Id rather wait till college when Im not being watched.

One more thing :] Im proof darlings. Proof that youll get there too. Its not impossible. We can look like the models in magazines, we can be as skinny as we want, and the people who say its not possible are the people who just didnt try fucking hard enough!

<33 I love you all and I promise to be back tomorrow!

Thats its girls Ive made it!

Im so sorry Ive been gone so long I havent forgotten about you Ive just been so wrapped up in other things like school, college, internships, Chess, and all sorts of stuff. First off I got into Buffalo State college! And SUNY Purchase! Im so proud of myself that I actually made it into college!!

Second. Now heres the big news. Get ready. This morning I weighed myself, expecting it to be close to 110.0lbs since I feel like Ive been eating so much food lately. I got on the scale, the numbers started rolling around, and then they stopped and I opened up my eyes, looked down, and looked at the scale in disbelief. 100.5lbs. 100.5Lbs. I had to check it different times. Then I went and checked a different scale, it said the same thing. Im 100.5lbs. so damn happy I cant even..

<333stay skinny girls

104.0Lbs!!!

Guess who just weighed herself at 104.0lbs? Meee!!! Im so happy that Im just one pound away from reaching my goal weight!

I had my 5hr course for driving yesterday which meant I had an excuse not to eat lunch! When that was over my mom picked me up and we went and did some driving practice until it was dinner. We went and picked up some sushi and dumplings for dinner. I only ate 1roll or sushi, and a few fried pork dumplings. Yum they were so delicious!

Todays been great so far, I had some Chicken Tika Masala and Rice for breakfast. Im hoping that my mom and I will go up to Woodstock later maybe grab some coffee and pick up her artwork from a gallery. Its going to be a beautiful day so Im super pumped!

Im in such a good mood! I figured out something, my ADHD medication keeps me calm. Every night I go crazy somehow. I get really upset sometimes, not bipolar but I think a lot less clearly and logically when my meds wear off. I mean I already knew that, what I figured out was, If I take half my meds in the AM then about halfway through the day I take the other half Ill be calm all day and wont freak out at night. Ill be able to control my appetite 24/7 and Ill be a lot more pleasant!

Think thin!!
Thank you for all your kind words about my artwork :]