Working it Off is Going to Kill Me

So yesterday I graduated :D it was really boring and long, I don't find things like that important at all. Id rather have just been handed the diploma on the last day of school. Id guess you'd just say Im low key.

So this is me in my cap and gown, one good thing about graduation is those gowns, noone can tell how much you weigh under them!

After graduation my parents, Chess, and I went out to an amazing Chinese food restaurant. Coincidentally its the same one that Chess delivers for, but their food is so fucking good I cant help but go there for sushi whenever I get the chance.  

This is the kind of Sushi I ate, its called a passion roll, look! its a heart! :D Its a spicy tuna and avocado roll with a piece of tuna on top YUMM

Alright, so I gotta tell you about today and how hard I worked! When I woke up I went downstairs and had my usual bagel and coffee(550 calories) then after that I decided that wasn't cool, too many calories. So I got my ass going! I spent hours working on the Wii fit, I started doing the biking game for about 30minutes(kind of like running in place) then I actually ran in place for another 30minutes burning around 300calories(including other games etc.) in between my exercise I ate a salad and had a Sun Drop soda, altogether I had around over 1000calories, but after all that exercise(and I'm not even done for today) I ate about 700 calories, which is the best I've done in weeks!  

Thin dreams <3

Its a Two Update Day!

Alright, went to the doctors and I do in fact have a UTI. Ugh. its really painful >.<

I got 3 really cute dresses today :D One is for graduation, the other two are just cause I look awesome in them. Its really weird, my favorite thing ever is big red and white stripes, even though horizontal stripes are supposed to make you look bigger I wear them all the time. I have 2shirts, 1dress, and a pair of shoes all red and white stripes. I am a girl obsessed! I just love them, I think they look great on me. ;]

Ive eaten a fuck ton of food today.: 

Everything Bagel +Butter

Coffee+Hot Chocolate+milk

Watermelon Blowpop

Chicken Caesar Salad in a Spinach Wrap

Water

Ice Cream+Chocolate Sauce+ Cherries

Im really sad right now. I have the NY State Trig Regents tomorrow Im afraid Im going to fail though >.< My Dad wouldnt let me go out tonight even for a few hours to see Chess and he couldnt come over because he had to watch his little sister. I havent seen him in two days and its really hard after seeing him every single day and spending hours with him for the past 2weeks or so. I miss him :/ so tonights really not going as well I had hoped. My stomach hurts, Im not snuggling with my boy, I ate a fuck tom of food, my parents are mad at me for some reason, and ughhh I have to go to bed early tooonight and thats going to suck.

Ill probably end up eating half a bagel later >.< 

Graduation!

My thighs. Still chubby but I love the space between them 

So I know that you might not want to hear about this, but ohhh fuuuuck I think I have a urinary tract infection. It huuuuuuurts to peeeeeeeeeeee! Not fun yeooo. Im going to the doctors later today :( hopefully it will get better.

Ok, but tomorrow Im graduation High school! Ive got rehersal at 8am, and then my trig regents at 12:15, and finally graduation at 6:00pm. Im pretty excited except I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR. Im hoping my mom will take me to Forever 21 and get a cute cheap dress. I really like wearing dresses but I have like one or two that are casual enough to wear out on a regular day. My favorite dress I got when I was still big, it  didnt fit and looked terrible on me, my mom told me to get rid of it but I kept it. Now I look pretty damn good in it. It was one of those little victories. :]

Last night was really bad. Filet mignon with a gorgonzola sauce on top, baked potatoe fries, and asparagus. Then i drank 2 cans of Sun Drop soda. Ugh. So much. I didnt even bother weighing myself. Right now
Im watching Hoarders, i like watching it alot. I find somthing nice about watching people with no control, makes me feel like i actually have some
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And  now for some bikini Thinspo!!

Eat Like a Model, Look Like a Model

Little bit of thinspo, all stolen from tumblr lolol but its a great place for it :] 

Enjoy

I feel like the incredible hulk... in a bad way

Just added up my calories from yesterday, did the math and my grand total was 1325calories. I cant believe it. I had general tsaos(spelling?) Chicken and rice for dinner, not alot but about half of it. Chess had the other half. I figured out what trips me up when I go to Chess's house, its soda. He drinks caffiene free pepsi, which is a gold can. In my head anything thats not in a navy blue can means diet, so i end up drinking all 150calories. It seems like such a silly mistake, but i dont notice the difference because its not quite as sugary/surupie tasting as regular pepsi. Im going to have to watch that.

On an unrelated note, Chess's moms new nickname for me is "skinny" and honestly i dont appreciate it. I dont need to be made fun of for being skinny. I cant take pride in being so skiny that i get called "skinny", i just feel like theyre making fun of me. Uggh. I dont want to ask Chess to tell her to stop because shes such a nice lady and it would be more awkward then it already is with her sometimes. 

I didnt eat much yet, just a bagel and some coffee, but were probably gonna have a big dinner cause its fathers day ugh Thin dreams <3