sometimes I feel like an abnormally happy person. It takes so much for me to feel really down. When I gain a pound, I say to myself "fast today!" and a walk away. Im not sure why I'm so positive. My parents dont seem especially optimistic. hmmmm! Maybe its my ADHD? and I am confusing hyper with happy. oh well! haha :]
so City was a food catastrophe! I had a weird little sandwich for breakfast, then when I got into NY, we went to Toys R' Us, and I bought lost of candy. My friends helped me eat most of it, but i'm still stuck with a big lollipop, and Warhead candy. We went to Starbucks twice! I got a Iced Tea, then a Latte. For dinner we went to an Italian Restaurant and I got Penne al Vodka. I was the only one who didnt eat the entire plate. I had about half. While we were in Grand Central I got some Indian Food too. It was quite a food filled day. lol bright side? didn't have McDonald's XD
We did infact do A TON of walking. Probably not enough to counteract my food frenzy, but it was great for my legs! OH AND I GOT 3 BOXES OF CRAYONS FOR $1.00!! lol I'm a strange artist, so things like that really make me happy. I'm extremely hyper/happy tonight. Im gonna watch some Thinspo Vids, then add on to this. (gonna try and stop my double and tripple posts)
One more thing. I love your comments, I read each and every one of them(even if I dont respond) and They mean the world to me. I love you girls <33
(39 min later...)
Well, I didnt find any really good thinspo tonight :[ but no worries, even a little helps! I was just coloring in my food Journal; My journal is very colorful. I put little quotes down on the bottom of every page. Its nice to see a new inspiring quote every couple days! I'll need to post a pic one day ^-^ I have my weight, and total calories next to the date. In the back of my it, I keep a list of reasons to keep loosing weight. Ive dedicated a few pages to some thinspo that I have yet to print. Overall, its very me :D
I took a benydryl to help me fall asleep BEFORE 3am @___________@ anyone know a better over the counter sleep aid?(I know benadryl isnt a sleep aid but it works the same!) I have some insomnia, and when school starts im going to need to be going to bed at like 11 :/
Stay thin!! <33
Aw, your posts put me in such a positive mood! I'm glad you had fun. :)
ReplyDeleteNo idea about sleep aids though - sorry. <3
okkkk. love the fish. i was so gonna cop, but that's be sososo unoriginal. great blog. keep it up! (:
ReplyDeletexx Sarah
lol i love my fishies! i named them Irony cause its a blog about ana and you can feed them haha cop em! their not mine anyway ;] i thought they were cute!
ReplyDeleteI'm loving how positive and optimistic you are- that's a really great thing! I think everyone should try to be more optimistic, even myself. Like, instead of feeling like crap when I've gained a pound, I should try to optimistic about it and think, "Oh, some fasting will fix that!"
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like you had a lot of fun in NY! Even though it was a food-filled day, you were still able to resist McDonald's, so that's awesome!
Your food journal sounds really nice! Mine's just a folder w/blank pages (that I keep ripping out whenever I eat too much...I should really stop doing that...). But I keep a thinspo journal where I cut out pics of magazines & make collages (I'm not much of the artist). I'll have to scan a pic of it sometime =).
I don't know of any sleep aids or anything, but I do know that when I consume any caffeine past 4 p.m., it's hard for me to go to sleep at a decent hour. I don't know if that will help or not =).
PS- the fish are adorable ^_^
<3
I have problems going to sleep at night too and when I am sick I drink theraflu pm before bed and that puts me to sleep fast.. sometimes I try to lay really still with my hands on my stomach and do yoga breathing and a couple mins of that calms me down enough to sleep. Also, I haven't bought any (yet) but I know you can buy melatonin at grocery/health stores and I belieeeeevveeeee it can be used as a natural sleep helper, since our brains have melatonin in them anyways.. just go read the wiki section about it titled "use as medication" :)
ReplyDeleteps: I love reading your blog and I definitely think you captured the freshness you talked about before, everything reads a lot happier here.
I love the optomism <3 It's so much better than all of the sadness and depression thats circling around our proana world. Good job on the no McD's =] that stuff is so bad for you.
ReplyDeleteI use melatonin too. After a while it stopped working for me but there's other sleep aids like Lunesta that are basically just a higer dose of melatonin. <3 I hope you sleep better!
stay strong lovie